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03 September 2011 @ 06:38 pm
'It's good to flex that creative mojo'. this is an exciting ground-breaking arts collective who provide a worldwide platform both online and offline for those with mental health problems , addiction, or who feel like square pegs - to express themselves through art as catharsis & We welcome all those who empathize and support our ethos.

COME JOIN US!

post you work or just comment on other peoples creative things

http://www.fledglingarts.org/

I work in the writers wing and as an outreach counselor
 
 
24 November 2009 @ 03:23 am
I was feeling angry about the widespread binary gender system, and watching Mad Men didn't help. Then I came up with this. Its a poem, and I definitely feel better about it than the last thing I posted. I feel like a loser for posting twice in a row, though.

My desires reach, blind to these maritime flags, only guided by two beacons of light and a sonorous call. You cannot tell me that you know which ship has more treasure before peering below their decks.
 
 
16 November 2009 @ 01:18 pm
Hi again! Didn't know where else to post this, so I decided this was probably an ok place. Please remove if it is too off-topic.

So I've been having an on-again off-again with this woman. The biggest reason for me doubting that the relationship will work is because she isn't a musician. I realize this sounds shallow, but it is difficult to try to fit those two different worlds together. She understands and enjoys music, but she is no longer seriously involved in practicing and performing it, so we don't know any of the same people. Her social anxiety (accompanied by migraines) turn her into this much more withdrawn person, so whenever I try to introduce her to other important people in my life, I partially feel like I'm introducing a stranger because she's so open and outgoing with me.

What are your guys' thoughts on this? Do you have any similar experiences that you think would be enlightening? Thanks.
 
 
14 November 2009 @ 01:11 am
Nothing worse than squares pretending to be freaks.... fuckin hipsters...

Still, at least I went out, even if only to prove that the alternatives to staying in really are shite.

Does anyone else find that theres a sort of hipster phenomenon of totally square boring norms pretending to be "different" and generally getting in the way? People who buy empty buildings and pretend to have squat parties in them kind of thing... it really annoys me, its hard enough being a wierdo without straight normal norms trying to get in on the act and fucking it up.
 
 
03 November 2009 @ 07:44 am
Hi, I'm new to this community. I'm glad I found it. It seems like the kind of place where I can let my guard down and engage in conversation that is more than small talk.

I'm starving for a real conversation. I have my family to talk to, but there are things I'm afraid to tell them. It's not that I'm afraid that they won't love me, I just don't want them to see me differently.

I have one close friend that I don't see that often. I recently changed schools, and while I like the people at the new school, I haven't gotten close to anyone yet.

I guess I should tell you a little bit about me. I'm 16. I've struggled with anxiety, depression and eating disorders for years. I recently started to question my sexuality. I decided it was irrevelant for now, because I just got out of a relationship and am not ready for a new one.

I've recently started writing poetry. I'm not great at it, but I think I'm improving.

I tend to be quiet around others. I like to listen. I'm not good at approaching people, but I can carry a conversation pretty well if I'm approached.

I guess that's it for me. I was wondering if you guys could comment on this and tell me a little bit about yourselves.
 
 
 
29 October 2009 @ 11:46 pm
Hi. I'm a musician with clinical depression and social anxiety disorder. I've also recently been diagnosed with audio hypersensitivity, but I'm cynical about it. I considered myself a lesbian, but then was in a long-term relationship with a girl who happened to have a penis, so now I sort of identify as genderqueer because I don't feel that attached to my gender, and don't feel comfortable with people treating me differently just because of my genitalia. These are the most pressing issues in terms of my current "identity" or at least how I perceive myself at present.

I wrote an absolutely terrible song in a short amount of time, just trying to get the demons out so I can get back to being a student. This is why you shouldn't forget to take your meds, even for a day.
 
I just want to die, just leave the noise behind
The world's too crowded now, won't pay my absence any mind
To those I've loved and left, I'm sorry if I've hurt you so,
the weight of consciousness can be so much you know.
If I had the strength to make that final blow,
it'd rise above the deafening noise, bring peace I'll never know.
So laugh at these cliches, and pay my pleas no mind,
when a person dies, there is nothing left behind.
 
 
I'm sorry if that made your eyes/ears bleed. That has to be some of the cheesiest shit ever spewed forth from my mind.
 
 
19 August 2009 @ 02:00 am
I go by the name of Alex, or "you with the face"
Whichever you prefer.

I'm a pretty laid-back guy, but I DEFINITELY know how to get down a party.
I've been to my fare share of raves, I guess you could call me a raver.

I listen to almost all genres of music, but more specifically rock and electronic music.
I've been digging psychedelics and mental expansion via psychoactives.
I absolutely love philosophy, specifically metaphysics.
I also love the social sciences.

I have an opinion on almost ANYTHING, and I LOVE giving others my opinions.

TALK TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING!
I'm just about the most open person there is!
I always try and look at life and all situations from all possible perspectives as to get a clearer visualization of what I'm dealing with!
 
 
Current Music: Replacement Killers by Crystal Method
 
 
09 August 2009 @ 06:58 pm
Hello, all.

My name is Kristy; the internet knows me more as Lambert.

I'm the person you avoid at bus stops. I dress well enough, but I'm a little too interested in talking to strangers, and have no PC-filter to tell me when to back off or avoid a subject. Example? Sometimes I tell strangers what it's like to have my particular vagina. I guess you could call me creepy, but it's in a rather harmless/too candid kind of way.

I tend to be told that I exude crazy/gay -- both of which describe me. I'd think that was a good thing, if it didn't get in  the way of meeting people on common ground.

I'm weird, in that sort of way that no one relates to me. (No one I know irl, mind you.) I'm crazy, but I'm aware of it/can sort of rationalize things away sometimes. I listen to music that pisses off almost everyone. I'm in the midpoint of coming out of the closet -- I have no close, gay friends. I dress sort of like a modernized mom trying to be casual. I write stories about people getting in to situations they don't prevail over; happy-tuned songs about dead hookers, and delusional surviving relatives of car accidents. I'm sort of quirky, I suppose. I enjoy sleep-dep the same way that people do their illegal drugs. My favorite juice is prune, and I think that pepto abysmal is tasty, in that sample-it-a-little kind of way.

I have a deep-seated love for redheads with curly hair.

I have delusions of being a popular author. This is usually backed up by the smattering of praise I get, when people actually come across my work.

I ask too many questions. I'm never satisfied by anything going on in the world: the news is too sparse, and the corruption is terrifying. I'm 20, but used to act older; now I have the logic and wit of a 5-year old. My meds do stupid things to my brain, leaving me only with the capacity to write horror stories fraught with jokes.

I think there's more, but as an introduction, I suspect this will suffice.
 
 
11 July 2009 @ 12:26 am
 [Waves] Hi. I'm new here. ._.

My name is Amanda, obviously. I'm sweet sixteen & I live in a town where nothing happens.
I'm a lesbian gamer girl who plans on becoming a graphic designer.
I listen to D&B, techno, & rock.
My style is futuristic, colorful & sometimes professional looking.
I play the tenor saxophone and piano.
I have an average of 90% in my school so far.
I've sung since I was in Kindergarden.
I danced for six years & I just started again this year after my dance school closed.

Life has been pretty difficult.
My 18 year old brother has a mild form of autism,
& my mother is never really home.
Dad is the closest person I have in my life.

I've been anti-social ever since sixth grade when the rumors of me being gay spread out.
I lost all my good friends & the ones who wanted to become my friends completely backfired at me.
I'm emotionally unstable.
The smallest event that goes wrong could make me cry.
Yet, my mindset is above & beyond everyone else.
I'm noted as the most mature in my class.
Which is why no one really hangs out with me.
& no matter how hard I work,
everyone except the adults think it's worth shit.
I had thoughts of suicide and running away when I was around 12-13,
but never attempted them.
I don't plan on attempting suicide now because I want to stay alive,
but I sometimes crave to run away from my town & go into the city.

I have a small group of friends but the true ones are millions of miles away.
I try so hard to look at my life in a positive way,
& I help everyone who is in pain with their problems.
But I constant go blind & have no clue where to go with my own.
Being pushed away from my crushes
& being ignored when I invite someone over doesn't help out the situation.
High School is hell,
& now with a cheerleading class I was forced to go to,
my summer is going to be hell too.

The things that keep me going is this box that's tucked under my desk.
This box has a bunch of letters from my heroes & pictures of good times.
Whenever I'm sad, I read all the letters & try to look at all the accomplishments I made.
But the huge missions in my life are so far away from me right now,
that my motivation for things goes out the window.

I don't know anywhere else to go to,
because I'm terrified of upsetting my friends & family if I told them.
 
 
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: "Propane Nightmares" Pendulum
 
 
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